God?

You ask too much. -D

Isnt 57yrs enough time?

-57yrs of 2nd guessing myself.

-57yrs of not feeling good enough, pretty enough, kind enough, worthy enough.

-57yrs of BEGGING for a sign of HOPE

-57yrs of BEGGING to feel the Holy Spirit

-57yrs of no response

-57yrs of regretting bad decisions

-57yrs of morality lessons & character building

-57yrs of hating this world

-57yrs of hating how you look right now in all this...like an absent, preoccupied & distant father

-27yrs annoying my sweet husband

-22yrs of being a bad mom to my flawless perfect baby chillrens

-57yrs striving to be a better person

-57yrs of nothing from you

-57yrs fading into oblivion

-57yrs of blowin full steam ahead so I dont have to think about who I've hurt & the shitty human I've been to those I love the most

-57yrs of making the most positive impact I can make

-57yrs of deeply believing I'm not worthy of love & no one could possibly want anything to do with me

-57yrs for what

WHEN ALL I WANTED WAS TO FEEL WORTHY & TO FEEL YOUR PRESENCE

You ask too much Lord =Dedee